Hello. My name is Rachel, and I’m a comparison addict.

While this may not be the most flattering introduction to lead with- for many, MANY years- it’s where I’ve lived.

The struggle of comparing myself with others is real.

Can you relate? Have you ever succumbed to the comparison game?

Imagine for a minute that a friend of yours is promoted to the EXACT position that you’ve longed for. Dreamed of even. And she calls to tell you all about it.

Deep down, you want to be happy for her, and truthfully you are. It’s not that you don’t want her to succeed, or reach her goals and live her dream.

The problem is- you want that too!

And if we’re being REALLY honest- maybe we want that first!

And so outwardly you celebrate with her. You tell her job well done. You send her a text telling her how happy you are for her. You “like” all of her Facebook posts where she shares about her new and exciting adventure.

But inwardly….. inwardly, you’re drowning. Sinking in bitter sands of comparison.

“When will it be MY turn?” you ask yourself. “Why can’t I have what she has?” “Will I ever get MY big break?”

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Can I be honest with you?

I spent the better half of this week feeling discouraged and dissatisfied.

And if I’m being REALLY honest, I feel this way often, and frequently when it ought to be least likely.

I wonder if you can relate?

Take my week, for example. Last week was a stellar week for me!

• I met all of my personal and work goals.
• Checked off EVERY item on my to-do list. C’mon now!
• Saw great improvement with my website.
• Experienced some beautiful, tender moments with Jesus.
• Received positive feedback on a very raw post I had written.
• I even witnessed a HUGE answer to prayer!

There is no rhyme or reason as to why I felt so discouraged.

I should have felt elated, productive, accomplished, and…well, satisfied.

But instead I found myself asking, “Is this all there is?”

“Why do I feel so dissatisfied?”

“Surely, there’s got to be more to life than this?”

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Are you wounded and desperately in need of the Healer’s touch today?

Last night I had a good ol cry.

It was imminent. I had been on the verge for months.

I could feel it welling up inside me- this building, aching, heaviness.

Though I didn’t know exactly why, or for what.

Ever been there??

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